>>15707031Introversion is like playing on high difficulty with an exp multiplier. Introversion is fine, but shyness is not. Use your time indoors to "grind" self knowledge and a sense of purpose outside of interpersonal relationships, once you've reached a degree of Individuation your confidence will pretty off the charts and you'll start seeing people find you to some degree (obviously you still have to do stuff to be noticed), and you'll have the awareness to see past the "midcap" enemies that take down so many of our bros. Related post I saved a while back.
>Depression (as with most emotional and personality disorders) occurs when *something* is written to neurons that triggers a fight or flight response that is never appropriately reconciled and emotionally disarmed. This most commonly comes from trauma associated with malevolent abuse at the hands of a supposed loves one, buried or poorly excused to suppress feelings of vulnerability. Thing is, to leave neurons in a threat response state unresolved means literally depriving them of chemical energy to fuel such response, starving them through avoidance. You "pass" these memories in your mind and it activates the red alert state, often resulting in related fight-flight behavior leaking out, so they stay buried and unresolved. Thing is, the neurons are deprived, not killed; their mitochondria starts sending weak mayday chemical signals that cause the chronic disorder. Drugs/pharmaceuticals can temporarily relieve the response, but homeostasis adapts and they keep adjusting, strengthening when possible, until you finally give them attention, "feed" them, and reconcile the nature of the traumatic response to defang it. This is known as "embracing your shadow" in philosophy; material science is not a substitute for philosophy and metaphysics, only a tool to better explain it.http://sheezone.com/alchemy/the-three-phases/ 