>>12085392I'm sorry I'm rambling again
thing is I suck at writting stuff I lack either experience or knowledge about (even worse both)
like how am I supposed to write about living in a city, the story must play in a nature surrounded village/town/county in order to feel even remotely empathising
how do I write I character that lives independently, how do I write a character that's an only child, how do I write a character that has love interests etc
I mean I wrote couple of stuff on paper but after I looked it it just seems... wrong, the guy is almost like a poor self insert of mine, I don't want that... I was going for an average ECCENTRIC joe finding himself in a balanced conundrum where at any point in the story it's not going good or bad for him but it goes by the routine through balance of adaptation and bargaining
I tried way too hard to cram way too many stuff for it to be fun that it just has almost no touch with the real world- zodiac, tarot, natal maps, astral projection, melified men, goosehead genitalia, ophinem....
that chapter I posted was written in a heat of the moment- I had clear focus what I wanted and I wrote it
for me it's not enough, you say it's good, somebody else might say that, some will say it's trash, I take itbfor granted that it's atleast average and rnough however I'm... scared? I guess. that I just can't have such a clear momentary focus for 99+% of the book
