>>21274532I'm a 29 year old kissless handholdless dateless virgin. I've never seen a vagina or tits in real life.
I refused to reciprocate on multiple flirtatious interactions because I'm not comfortable with myself. I'm not ugly whatsoever + 6’1 and could be argued when I lose the rest of this weight I'm actually slightly above average in attractiveness. None of it matters.
I'm essentially considered “the fat guy who made it" at my gym and get daily compliments + questions from many others. Obviously I still have more weight to lose, but I look completely different.
I used to be close to 500 lbs a couple years ago and nearly wasted my entire 20s being a isolated NEET basement dweller that was addicted to food + video games + anime to escape reality.
I'm getting more attention from females because I'm continually getting into better and better shape yet my brain doesn't allow me to reciprocate until I'm completely fit. My entire life consists of physical self improvement at this point with no clear goal or end. I just want to be an absolute specimen of a man.
My brain won't allow me to seek out women for the prospects of intimacy or even speak to them in any fashion other than simply "what's up" and "see ya" until I'm nearly top 10% of males in terms of fitness - there's no in-between. The notion of a woman choosing me over other men even if I'm objectively better looking or stronger is completely alien to me. Sex seems fucking alien to me.
I usually ignore most women on purpose if they try to make eye contact or talk because I can't get myself to interact with them until I'm completely in shape. If I do interact with them, it's purely platonic and I can't get myself to act flirtatious in any way whatsoever and I'm essentially asexual around them.
It's technically not over because it didn't even begin, but it feels over.
