>>11874203> Are you still the same you or an impostor? Epilepsy caused brain damage, particularly in the memory region, but my personality and identity remain the same but there are periods of my memory that are missing. I applied and got accepted into a University but I didn't remember it until 2 years later and came across the acceptance letter with all my documents.
> How do you feel about time when you can apparently just transcend it and jump forward like that? It feels bizarre. I drifted in and out of consciousness after the initial seizure the last time due to exhaustion. After a seizure, you don't remember who you are, where you are or what date it is. It's actually kind of scary because I forget what happens in the recent past. Usually a month for when I get medical existence, but that last one I forgot almost half a year. It's like one minute you're going about your day I guess and then you wake up in a hospital (or in the second case, my apartment floor) and your forget everything until the memories come back. For non-seizures that is not the case, but for seizures it is and then people tell you about some stuff you did or you see things you knocked over during the haze period and you have no memory.
>Are you sure you weren't conscious the whole time and didn't just forget what your experienced during a certain period of time?I have other people's testimonies that confirm I was unconscious, in the last seizure I had, I was home alone. So unless philosophically someone broke in (which there were no signs of) I doubt I experienced consciousness and then forgot. Plus my body had the customary damage of a seizure (muscles in pain, pissing yourself, exhaustion).
> Are you afraid of death?No, I have not had a fear of death since my first seizure for sure, but I may have lacked a fear of death before that but I can't place that memory of me telling my family I wasn't afraid of death before or after the seizure. So you got me there.
