>>5993098I've thought about it every morning when I wake up, and every night whenever I go to sleep, for about 8 years. I took some bad advice after high school, didn't pursue what I wanted to pursue because my family fell for the college meme and hounded me until I decided to do that instead. Eventually caved and decided to trust them, went and finished college with decent grades, got some random degrees, didn't care for either of them as careers in the first place. Money and time completely wasted, and now the things that I wanted to do earlier in life can't be done any longer. Now every day is worse than the one before, as the reality becomes more clear, and the inability to go back and start over realized. It feels like someone is grabbing your soul and ripping it out slowly and there's nothing you can do about it. One day they'll find my lifeless body, and maybe then they'll realize why, but in my heart I know that they never will.
