>>17001447well, after my ordeal I sought out to eradicate all of my feelings so I would never repeat my past mistakes and I think I eventually succeeded in this endeavor, however it changed me a lot for better or worse I'm not sure, I'm not the same person I used to be internally, it made it nigh impossible for me to continue the same life so I burned all bridges and started over, I can not tell if this was the right choice, some things are better, some things are worse, it sounds like you're heading in a similar direction, I really don't know what to say but I wish you luck
