>>18603173Nikki can tell from Amy's words and the tone of her voice that she is deeply hurt by her actions. And of course, Amy's feelings were fully justified. Nikki wasn't sure if she could ever make it right, because now that she's had some time to think, it's clear to her that disappearing the way she did and trying to do what she tried do without saying anything, and after everything they've shared over the last few months must feel like a betrayal. But even if she couldn't make it right, Nikki was sure she could at least make sure Amy and the others knew she'd never do something like that again.
"After Jen died I just felt so hopeless and I just couldn't bring myself to be here, or talk to you, or Madame Divine, or Colby because Jen is such an important part of all the memories we share. And I every time I remembered her, I'd see what I saw when I fell into that crater. And I just couldn't take it anymore. I thought if I cut myself off from you all that maybe it would hurt less. But it didn't."
"I was selfish. I couldn't see past my own pain and almost caused more pain for the people I love the most. I'll never forgive myself for that, and no matter what I'll never make that mistake again."
"I owe you all an apology. Amelia. Colby. Madame Divine. I almost abandoned the most important people left in my life and I'm so, so sorry." Nikki smiles. "And Jen I know that even after death you're still here with us. And that just proves that you're truly the most incredible friend any of us could have wished for, and I know you wouldn't have wanted me to do what I tried to do. So I'd like to apologise to you too. I'm truly sorry."
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