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>November 2019
>25 year old virgin NEET
>Do Nofap, inspires me to get full-time job
>staffing agency gives me job 7 to 4
>know I will hate waking up 5:30 a.m. but fuck it
>as NEET I slept 2 am to 12 pm
>sudden switch is too much, I start falling asleep standing up at my shit factory job just watching machines run
>nofap ends, can feel how heavy balls are, shoot load in ten seconds without orgasm, keep fapping and cum again 15 min later
>keep feeling sleep at work, hard to get to bed before 11
>boss yells at me in January for looking sleepy
>keep struggling, drink tons of water, cold showers
>can't cope
>March 2020 start drinking coffee
>start sleeping 5-1/2 hours a night
>by June 2020 I feel numb to reality but the sleepiness has finally gone away
>only drink free coffee at work
>hate myself because I always said coffee is for söycucks and faggots
>dissociation continues
>sometimes I have lucid dreams where I am in a dark tunnel of trees with howling wind and screaming
>other times I am at my computer, power suddenly goes out and weird numbers flashing everywhere
>finally those dreams go away
>feel completely numb to everything
>don't want to have sex because everything feels illusory
>sleep in on weekends, don't drink coffee then, get headaches
>banking money as much as I can living with parents but constantly dream of quitting and being a NEET again even for just a few months
Fuck coffee. I know it's my own fault but I fucking hate it. At least I don't pay for it. There's nothing more cucked than PAYING so you can PRODOOCE more for shekelstein.
