>>9897594ooops I forgot to answer the why do you want it so much
I'd say it's just human natura to want, and it is rather transcendental and beyond the scope of modern human to not have any desires, as in the current stage of events that just leads tosuicidal nihilism- if you got nothing to strive for you may aswell kill yourself- though it's important to mention that want (or better yet DESIRE) can be as small as wanting to eat a pizza with your favourite toppings tomorrow or next week, or aspire to one day not wake up past 2 pm even more tired than when you went to bed (I only recently figured that can be due to dehydration and no usual breakfast, as that one time when I didn't breakfast I'd regularly clock in 15 hour sleeps shift and feel better than I ever did in my whole life)
with my common goals like building my own lab, cooking up this or that, being able to drive a car/buying chevy impala 67, trying this drug trying that food visting this and that country or place...those can all readily be solved with money, like nearly all of those can just be solved with enough money
pussy is not quite like that, sure, there are whores, there are brothels and escorts- but you're paying for a service, not for a product
you can't just buy the woman and do what you want, you have to pay them ridiculous amounts to get what you want whereas having somebody that is emotionally bound to you... well, you can groom them into doing what you want, or you could just mentally break them into doing what you want, supposedly less unconventional methods just include giving them mdma, but it's not like other options don't exist
that's that one thing I can't have, that I can never have unless I play my cards exactly right (realisticaly, if I were, say, a millionaire I think there'd be more freedom around this... but I'm not that ambitious and I like to keep my fantasies down in the moderate area)
