>>19595470i noticed i was too far gone and had reached a new low when i caught myself literally shaking from nervousness right before her boxing duel against TJ. Previously i had always scoffed at josiecels and other overt parasocial, waifufagging behavior, so finding myself in that same pathetic situation was disappointing, as i realized i was closer to those simps than i was willing to admit. It happened gradually and without forcing it, i tried to deny it at first, think through it and self reflect, but i couldn't help myself and kept coming back to /ftl/ and the live feeds just to check on her well being. As much as i know it's pathological and fucked up i can't seem to be able to give it up for good, and now i'm looking forward to each of her streams like all you hopeless freaks. In the end we're not too far off from QnAnon, as much as i hate to admit it.
Also, first time posting here if that matters. Fuck my life.
