>>16419493and again the same thing definitely wasnt lost on me
but ya i did get over it
and now i think its a fun thing to look back on
it might be a part of why i actually enjoy getting frustrated at games now
cause it does bring me back to those times where i cared too much
the difference now is that the second i close the game i'm mad at, i stop being mad at it and completely stop thinking about it until i feel like opening it again
and it really wasnt all that bad back in the day either cause if how you did at some gay game was all you had to care about it in the world, things were alright even if you were getting frustrated
in the end it was an enjoyable time i believe, and not like all of it was spent being angry, when you have that kind of mindset you also find it feeling very good when you get what you want
just that it shouldnt be carried on too far into your life, obviously
if someone cant leave that behind at some point then theyre not going to do well
anyway so yeah, i dont regret the times where i was tinkering around in the littlest of config settings because i thought thats what was keeping me back and how i held death grudges against certain some people, by the end of things it was just fun in its on way
and maybe you do need to go through that in order to be a calmer person later, could be something that comes with experience
so ya i dont really blame or hate those people who act like that when i see them
theyre having their fun still, making memories in its own way
some people do play games to derive the pleasure from winning rather than the fun as theyre playing
just hope that they wont take it too far and turn into zombies who hold that mindset for the rest of their life like some do, and get to chill out later to look back on it as a better time, because then it can be pretty nice
i cant help but devolve into that ape brain when playing sometimes, but i cant say i hate it
maybe im just a masochist?
but anyway
charlim
