>>11034785I don't act expecting any sort of reward either. But doing the good deed and not the selfish one often is the harder choice, and it takes strength to do that. Perhaps that is a selfish reason in itself.
>>11034816There is no ideal love. But there must be one that is of a purer kind, that is much more than just mindless intercourse and which prevents people from cheating even if they wanted to. That is what I would like to find. See, finding a girlfriend and getting laid is very very easy in today's society. But it is also disgusting in many ways. And it turned that "geniune love" into one almost impossible to form, in the process.
I don't know what to tell you, you often sound quite undecided, and if you have postponed it for so long then it shows that there is something in you which does not want it. Why did you wish to do it? I know you probably heard this a lot, but you really shouldn't.
I don't know what to say about that either. I don't really stand on it in any way. I am not making any specific plans for it, nor am I thinking about it often. I just know that, once the time comes, I will carry it out. Perhaps I will regardless of what happens and what I am clinging to is just make-believe. I have also thought about moving it to thirty. Eight years are plenty of time to be giving myself, the extra five are unnecessary.
>I'm starting to see a pattern why people don't like my companyWhat did you mean by this?