>>11621392last crush i had on someone was probably the last time i was in a mixed school. 5th grade - graduation i was in boy schools so i havent seen girls in a long time ( or talked to women outside my family group in years ).
besides its not really my fault i cannot talk to girls, stigma here is that if you talk to one, you are immediatly called out for it and are trying to fuck her, etc etc.
besides: even if i land a date on somebody, they will probably say that i raped them or touched them in some way.