>>11893979I am satisfied even with no appreciation at all. Maybe it's because I always got a lot of appreciation irl from other people since I was very young. What do you mean with appreciation is your goal? Don't npd people already see themselves as the highest human being who should get lots of praise by subhuman normal people?
>I want them to think I am the bestNpd people already think they are the best and think people have to acknowledge that. Wanting to make people think you are the best is different.
>im more concerned with people I consider to have high valueDon't npd people think they are superior or equal to them? I never saw a npd person look up to someone. Knowing you devalue them doesn't sound really npd. My guess would be that you want people to say what a good girl you are in a sense of how smart and diligent you are. Maybe this stems from giving your best (as a child or now with a damaged mental state) but no one ever acknowledged that. (this is just a bigu guess, I wouldn't know)
