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Just wanted to swing by and get some stuff off my chest guys.
Ever since 2014 I've felt more and more drained. In all aspects of my life I find it difficult to do anything anymore. It all started when I was working a construction job.
My dad was the boss and some guy went full dick head mode and called me a brain dead fucking moron for standing around while I waited for someone else to finish their task so I could continue mine.I told the guy to fuck off cause I was just doing my job and he had me removed from the job site. As my dad was his boss I told my dad I wanted him formally reprimanded or I was gonna quit. He refused to reprimand the employee so I stuck to my guns and quit the job. This action would contribute to my life turning to shit.
That entire summer was hell for me. I still lived at home and my mother has always been abusive, and when she found out I quit my job she filled every hour of my day with non-stop insults and degradation. I tried finding a job around my area but to no avail but school was starting up soon and my parents didn't ask me or my brother to work during college. So I endured.
During the summer I also began to chew tobacco, as it made me feel good. It was a rush of happiness I hadn't known in a long time so I eagerly began to use it every night. During the summer the verbal abuse continued and my father refused to do anything about it, but I kept moving forward. School soon started back up and I attended classes. I was at purdue and I enjoyed the topic I was studying, however I couldn't help but grow bored at everything. All the classes and even things I used to enjoy made me fall asleep. I didn't find anything fun anymore and it started to get to me.
I had talked to my gf who I had been dating for about 4-5 years now about how I was feeling and she knew it was depression, I knew it to in the back of my head but I tried to endure, but my mental health collapsed.
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