>>17988639to be frank, i am weary of repeating past experiences. a few days ago, i told her i felt sick, and instead of acknowledge this, she quickly went back into her room.
i would be more vocal with how i felt, if only it were met by receptive ears, anon. for now, it feels like i get rejected left and right, and it not only makes me feel worse about the situation itself that caused me to feel upset, but also lonely and neglected because nobody cares enough to really listen. i always say that i do not need anybody to change how i feel, to put all this effort into trying to mask my emotions with happiness. i only want someone who can listen and understand my feelings. someone who can help support me with what i'm going through. i don't always have that.
i was really doing good this past week, despite all of my troubles, and there were a lot that weren't even my fault to begin with. i pushed myself to go outside and enjoy skating, which was outside of my comfort zone, but today is different because random strangers got involved and directed their negativity caused by my mom, at me. i am fucking broken, man. i'm only human...
