>>9146069Maybe it isn't but you gave general overview of your situation. You don't really sound like the kind of person you claim you are. Seeking spiritual enlightenment is in it self a sign that you are on the right path. Temptations such as these more often than not come from dissatisfaction. So it means that you know you can do better. Motivation like this really is satisfying in it's own way.
As you didn't really describe exactly what thoughts you are having i would appreciate any details about them. Are you like your friend only online?
