>>8941148All that being said, if life really is horrible and after a great deal of trying you feel there really is no getting out of it, suicide IS a valid option and you shouldn't feel ashamed to take it. It's your body and your life, and not anybody else's. I would rather see you recover and have a happy life, and I'm sure deep down that's what you want too, but I wouldn't judge you for ending it either. It sounds hard anon. I'm sorry things turned out this way.