>>2581880I'm severely depressed and on a sleep-avoidance bender because sleep just makes me more depressed somehow when I eventually wake up. Currently avoiding the guy who employs me because I'm having panic attacks lately and I would have to work with a bunch of alpha construction dicks. I don't know why I even bother anymore, but I have too much built-up pride at this point to go back to being a NEET, that and I don't technically have a condition so it's always a challenge to get any sort of bux out of it and that involves meeting with strangers so nope.jpg
Currently experiencing heart palpitations, sweats, etc. Drinking tea and urinating every 20 minutes or so.
Trying to wrap my head around Factorio but after almost 2 hours I'm convinced that I am a literal retard when it comes to coding/complex logistics or anything involving multiple trains of thought at one time. This is exacerbating my depressed mood. I built a furnace and then stared at my screen for like 30 minutes frozen in place having a borderline panic attack for the second time today. Considering refunding and putting the account credit towards A Hat In Time because at least that game is cheery and casual
like me.
Then I popped onto /v/ because I like to stew in my own misery, and I know you faggots just love blog posts like this one. For those of you who are up early or can't sleep (or have to work god forbid), hope your day/night is going well.
