>>7383317(c)
And it's strange, I suppose.
I come to feel like somehow, this is so far removed from history, so far removed from what we've been told has been the normal human experience for hundreds of thousands of years, if not countless millenia, and it seems, so fake. Like, I'm not really, real. Like this is some kind of dream, or machination. Things do not entirely feel like they add up. I don't know if any of you have heard of the mandela effect, but it happens to me constantly. Basically a conspiracy theory about "the elites" changing the past, or some shit. Usually about names of things, song lyrics. The "Berenstein bears" are actually spelled the BerenSTAIN bears, and everybody is freaking out because they don't remember it ever being spelled like "stain".
But for me, it's entire conversation that go missing - very clearly recorded comments about a situation or issue being utterly reversed later, and it feels like even the course of history is glitching out. I don't have memory problems, I'll straight up admit if I don't remember too clearly a thing. But if you go over a thing again, and again, and again - and it just never happened...I don't know.
I feel like there is some deeper truth, deeper than the Red Pill. Deeper than this world, supporting it's very existence. Piecing it together, strand, by strand.
And I'm afraid to say this, but I feel like it's calling out to me, from behind the walls of my blocked perception. From the darkness I cannot see into. I am compelled to stare into the abyss for meaning, and I am in fact worried that I am going insane.
I don't even know where I'm going with this. Sorry for shitposting.
