>>2971503Yep I was in a touring band for about 4 years.
It was always my dream to write my own music, get a fan base, and do a bit of touring.
And it actually happened, I couldn't fucking believe it. People were screaming my own lyrics at me and moshing and shit. But it was also a gigantic blackpill/redpill, because I realized it's all a bunch of bullshit. You get a dopamine release and then a few days later it's nothing.
You also know there is nothing really behind your music. The viewer has attached more meaning to your music than you probably have for your own music, which is a really weird experience. It's almost deception, or fraud. They are experiencing something they think is amazing but you know it's not amazing. You wrote it in your fucking room while fiddling around.
Also, yes, the amount of fucked up shitty towns and fucked up people in America is just abysmal.
