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the only people who stick
are the people one does not want around
everyone else leaves
someday
but these people never leave
i want to feel good
i want to do things
things that normal people do
but i cant
because of my brain
because my brain thinks dissociation is preferable
preferable to experiencing reality
why cant my brain just stop
everything would stop if my brain stops
suffering would be gone
i would be happy
but my brain prefers it this way
it tries not to let go
it desires this state
someday it will stop
soon i will be fine
i will not feel this way soon
soon i will have changed my brain
i am so close
so close to erasing my issues
so close to experiencing life
so close to life without constant suffering
when will that day come
when will it finally come
when will i be released from this agone
everyday everyday everday
i feel so heavy
so so heavy
and when it appears to get better
my brain makes everything worse
because new is bad
for my brain
but someday
someday it will have to accept this change
and on that day i will be happy
truly happy
without suffering
a chapter that has ended
it will happen soon
someday
