>>7425640I wish he would just give me something, something to make me believe. He knows me, he knows how my mind works and what I need to have faith in him, yet he won't give me anything. I want him so badly, to be honest, I need him.
He never answered my prayers as a kid, I've never felt him there. I never went to church and got super into science and he just faded away.
I want there to be meaning to all this besides making my parents and cat happy because I love them.
I just don't know and I'm scared a lot and I don't know what to do. It doesn't really make sense that he exists, but it makes less sense that he doesn't exist.
