>>979490You know, I get that a lot. Sometimes I wish I was trans or something so people would rally around me and tell me how brave I am.
But instead I have BPD from crazy amounts of PTSD growing up with a mom who hates men and a sister who also hated men. So from 1-22 when I lived with them, I was tortured. Physically and mentally. I hear shit 24/7. So before you call me too big a loser, try to imagine living permanently in the most strenuous, stressful situation you've ever been in, and now imagine living it for 5 years. Like when I hear a door opening, I hear my sister's door in our old house. She would come in my room and burn me and then tell people I groped and raped her. She was the main contributor but my mom let it happen. When I went to the police and school teachers with burns and bruises, my mom would tell them I was borderline retarded and autistic and that I had an 'episode and fell into some chairs.' Now no matter what I do, even with tons of xanax, SSNRI's, all this other anti-psychotic meds, I hear them argue 24/7 about everything. Arguments I remember as a kid, arguments that never happened. The night I tried to kill myself, the argued for 2 days about bowl cuts. Factor in insomnia and hallucinations and no matter how big a winner alpha buck nigger male you are, you would have problems.
