>>11974996No man, you should get the help you need. I'm 72 days clean, not from alcohol, but from opiates, and life is completely fucking different now. When I quit I just lost my job and had no way to support my family. Now I have another job with more pay and appreciation. You just have to want it and work for it. It's going to suck at first, but once you climb out of the hole, you'll be standing on a mountain.