>>1818373I'm not blameless in any of this though
>started drinking again (mom doesn't like me drinking; dad died of alcoholism)>started using opiates again (mom REALLY doesn't like this; dad used to be an H addict)>only doing opiates/alcohol so I can pretend to keep it together until she gets a job so I can move the fuck out and go crazy by myselfEvery single day I feel like drugs and alcohol are the only thing that helps perpetuate the slight momentum I've created in my life