>>15934715>Conventionally, something like a friend going on hiatus isn't a big deal for most peopletrue but i think the big difference is most people have other friends, for me this is the only friend i can really talk to about stuff, the other 1 just games and jokes but this one i can talk about anything so it felt like i would never get to really talk to anyone ever again which was retarded, i just have to message them and they'll make time eventually
>None of it is your fault, so, I hope that you're not blaming yourself or anything.i dont think i am, like an example is me thinking i can basically never talk to them ever again was pretty retarded but i dont blame myself or beat myself up over that, people think retarded things all the time and it's good that i was able to notice that it's retarded instead of just believing it 100%
>That's just how far low something like this happening can put you down, your emotions simply cloud any line of actual thinkingtrue, i think a good thing about it though is now i can remember that, like it felt shitty and real but now i can really tell i wasn't thinking clearly at all so i can remember that if it ever happens again
>If you're feeling up to it, then you definitely should message them today and try to relaxoh yeah i definitely will, i've been doing some coding with a youtube video in the background, solved a programming problem that i was having trouble with so that feels good but i really do want to talk with them so i'm gonna message them
>You're not retarded for it anythingi kinda agree, i dont think i'm retarded overall but i do think i was being at least a little retarded thinking my life was over at that point
>Also, get well soon with your cut. Have you gotten it checked out?thanks and no, i think its ok, its only 1cm wide and i think it was 4mm deep and it was on my finger, sometimes it still hurts/aches but its gotten a lot better, doesnt hurt all the time but yeah the scar is still apparent
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