>>16058069Oh this is great I just thought to make a post about this thank you dude, here’s my story:
>mom got pregnant by some random dude by accident>later I was born and don’t even know what’s his name or how he looks>grow as an extremely poor child to funerals, cemeteries of family members, see family break down in front of me>almost sent for adoption because how poor my family was>move to another country because my family member almost died to mafia>get bullied everybody at new school even teachers for my white skin color, my looks, personality basically everything I am>being told by best friend “why are you even breathing air you are wasting it”>get beat up countless times, getting told I’m worthless>eventually quit school at extremely young age and sink into deep depression>locked my self in my room for a few years>get on happy pills by psychiatrist >family member gets divorced and becomes the drunk dad I never had>later join the army and actually started doing something with my life even got a career out of it>start smoking>lasted for a few years before deep depression kicked in again>start balding>quit my job locked my self in my room again>start doing a career change>COVID hits the world>suddenly almost all family member ends up in hospital including me for different reasons that are not covid> family member on the verge of dying another family member became a cripple >jobless, working like a turtle for my career change>friendless>still a virgin at almost 30 because I’m convinced I’m worthless and no woman will ever want me because this is what I was told all my life, never even kissed or had a girlfriend>start working out, but now I stopped because for who am I doing this even?>not killing myself because I pity my mom and don’t want her to kill herself 