>>4885837Feel ya, OP. My life is a steaming pile of shit and it's mainly due to childhood trauma.
>Father's a raging abusive alcoholic>Almost killed my mother>She escapes him, brings me>He was a businessman and leaving him financially ruined her>Lost all the court shit>Live in poverty rest of childhood>mother works 2 jobs>Get molested by mothers new chad bf>Get beat up consistently in school>Graduate>Go to university because scholarship>Wouldn't have been able to go otherwise>Get gf first year>Becomes my entire world; Become co-dependent as fuck and a beta>Ends up cheating on me>Destroys my life because I am the omega-male>Start drinking just like daddy-o>Drop out of school>Become nothing>Drink to oblivion>Work shitty labor job for shit pay and long hoursWithdrawing from my last OD attempt. Turns out half a bottle of codeine and a 40 of whiskey didn't cut it. I'm on day three of a cold-sweating, empty-stomach (can't keep anything down except water), sick in bed just lurking on 4chan and avoiding sleeping.
Had my phone off for three days. Turned it on to 7 missed called, 12 texts most of which were from my "girlfriend" (not even official, we just fuck and hang out). She won't even talk to me, so I must have went full retard and called her drunk. Fuck knows what I said. I guess I'll stop caring about that, too. Fuck it.
