>>18079059After a couple years you become too far gone. You avoid people out of embarrassment rather the original reason you started. Your mom stops saying "everyone was asking about you" and you gradually thought of by others less. You stop keeping track of family and friends because seeing them live normal lives causes deep despair when comparing yourself. Time starts going by very fast, before you know it years passed, and you are still doing them same. You become unsocialized and like feral human incapable of normal communication. finally, your physical health takes the toll, and you look like a pale deformed freak. Death is your only escape now.