>>18803001I know the feeling. I spent years sleeping on a hardwood floor and eating once or twice a week because I didn't have the self worth to make any positive changes for myself.
The Discourses of Epictetus are my personal favorite and probably the most important influence I had that helped me turn things around.
https://files.catbox.moe/0yzswg.pdfThe Consolation of Philosophy is really good, too, and Siddhartha is an especially nice short novel about spiritual growth that I think you'd find as relatable as I did.
https://files.catbox.moe/bnshb5.pdfhttps://files.catbox.moe/mf20ma.pdfI hope these help you as much as they've helped me.
