>>8198062>on his ownNever have I ever. Any time I've submitted myself to therapy was in order to fool others or acquire skills to fool others. The whole goal is to go unnoticed shithead. If they know what is in my mind then they'll remove me from society and then I won't have anyone to take advantage of (see my work in finance). Besides there's too many things in the world I like doing.
Even my most recent forced hold was after giving a small bit of information in order to get a new therapist to be able to request days off from work whenever I want without having to worry about losing pay. At the time I needed it. Unfortunately the system down here doesn't work like it does in Utah so I can placed on a forced hold and almost ended up in LVMH (las vegas mental health) on an L2K hold. If it wasn't for my wife I'd be in there right now.
You don't seem to understand that even though I front that I'm mentally healthy and emotionally stable it's quite the opposite. It's just that in fact. A masquerade. Something that helps me get something else with the end goal of being a gray man.
Do I go out of my way to try to alleviate my issues with self therapy? Yes.
Have a sought a therapist to get more perspective? Yes.
Do I actively seek out mental health under the assumption I need it? NO.
I need their knowledge. That knowledge of behavior can mean the difference between a properly engaged conversation and a complete bombshell of an abortion of a conversation.
Show too much of what you're struggling with and you can get put away.
I won't do that anymore. I'm in a bad enough situation.
Awareness is key to overcoming what we are.
Fuck your one true scotsman theory.
