>>16023443idk fren it just sounds like you did something very irresponsible and consequences have hit and so you're keking, invoking irresponsibility and asking advice on how to become even more irresponsible.
i don't think the meaningful(valuable) way out of this is doubling/tripling down on irresponsibility. there is no justification in irresponsibility, only in responsibility.
i'm just telling what i think is in your ultimate highest interest, not what is immediately expedient. i'm not perfect either and have been guilty of taking the expedient over the valuable too much - but i just say these things that at least someone said them.
maybe someone else will tell you what you want to hear - is probably a lie though.
what is your actual reason for not wanting her anymore? because it was too easy?