yeah it's more a sexuality. i was merely referencing the hypnotic aspects, behaviour and consciousness i've created. it's a niche thing. it's still sexuality and i call it a fetish. people can argument on it, but not many people will understand it, that's why i'm okay with calling it a fetish. about the beliefs behind this, this is not a fetish. it's a not so much expressed part of human's psyche.i'm more attracted to the lunar mythic parts of the soul. this part of the soul seems like somewhat connected, but mirrored. i enjoy it, but i have to research and explore more into it and of it to say more. why i enjoy it and what it is etc.. for now it's the strong and intense sexuality and the strong and intense intellectual tension and awareness. and the independence coming with it. which to my liking inverses into sexual subversion of mine, but with the benefits of the won independence and awareness, which is radiating trough me in a clearing cathartic manner. it's a symbiotic system of the reawakening of the inner core / soul in a high tension relationship. it's not how i would express it, but loren attacks me alot for writing this down. there are aspects missing and it's a bit unclear leaving it like this. i will add further thoughts to this in the near future.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4KoO8rLyvg 