>>10188204I will be putting your posts in a notepad and bookmarking this thread to revisit so when im in a better mind frame i can reread it more and more to absorb it differently. Im a little butthurt and venting right now ill admit but i have fully read everything in this thread thus far. Now if i have fully processed it is another thing...but thats what re reading is for. Thanks for your help breh, ill do my best to work with it and try to turn my attitude around. I feel like once i can overcome the mental road blocks that are present daily, i can be a little more at ease with myself. This lockdown is comfy but its always put me on edge a bit because right when i started trying to improve myself something else gets in the way and halts it. I cant meet and fuck chicks in online classes. Take care anon and thank you
>>10188207Its all i ever wanted, a paycheck and something i can say i bought with my own money instead of my parents. My friend who works at a market, he just does his shit, comes home, smokes a joint, and we game for hours. I would have loved to have that experience at 18/19 and even now but im sure someone would hate me if i was content with just that.
>>10188203>>10188207Why does it feel like most people never get this crisis? They just exist, fell into the swing of things, just looked the boss in the eye and shook his hand and now hes a father getting by with his family. They didnt have to self improve or abstain from anything. They were literally just themselves and they won at life with it. Ive abstained from self harming substances and havent beat off to porn in 3 years and try to be pleasant and nothing has ever gone well for me
>>10188209>>10188212I would reply and discuss more thoughtfully with you guys but im getting a massive case of butthurt just being here. I think im going to hit the wall and then go to bed. Ill leave this thread open over night but i just want to say thank you to everyone who has talked with me. Bye frens
