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>wake up from a "sex" dream
>never even about sex anymore
>at this point basically just dream about talking to a girl at all
>not even sexually, just wanting to talk and emotionally connect with one. Door open to GF hopefully, but even just talking
>In dream time hours go by, and I'm just making a fool of myself, and she is just being annoyed and thinking I'm a loser
>eventually she just leaves, and I'm alone in a black void with an empty bunk bed until I wake up irl shaking
>the girl is almost always some random girl from high school; usually ones I had no contact with, ones that probably didn't even know my name, and for sure as shit aren't dreaming about me
is this just going to happen every other night now? Is this how it works? It used to not be like this; the dreams have gotten more intense and more frequent.
But then I realize the reason I'm a loser in my dreams, is that I can't even fathom what its like to talk to a girl long-term 1 on 1 in a connecting manner. I can't even DREAM up a scenario, so my dream just aborts itself into more singular nihilism. I can't even dream a dream anymore...
I think I need a psychiatrist I might be going off the deep end here. I usually never remember my dreams, but when I do, they are always something like this. It makes me think if I actually trained myself to remember them, they'd all be like this, and my nights are in reality existential hell, and that's why I don't sleep well.
