>>18427617yea it's really something to think about.
My brother died this month (overdose). I hated him growing up, and he was a piece of shit as an adult. Drug addict, and if you live in the US and have had a robocall, he likely sold your information to the people calling you, and ran a company calling people to scam them (not going to say the exact scam, but straight up scamming people). He was a "big deal" in that world. Even almost went to prison for it but rolled over on some bigger fish.
I didn't go to his funeral because I live across the country and I won't respect someone in death that I didn't respect in life.
My parents treated him as though he could do no wrong (1st born) where I am the black sheep even though I did good by them up until I recently said fuck it and moved away from them for good.
Even though I saw men die in Iraq, seeing the photos of his funeral and him laying in his casket really shook me up knowing he will never get another chance at life.
It's over, and it's permanent. Really makes me want to turn my life around and maybe get a wife and have kids. He was 41 and I am 34.
