>>10113855Dude, it hit me like a ton of bricks at around 25 or 26. Not that I'm dumb, but that I'm just... normal intelligence. I get bored with long winded philosophical descents into the is, was, being, meaning, purpose, blah. And math just bores me to tears. I can do it, but I feel like I'm solving a dumb puzzle with no reward.
I played guitar for 10 years and never learned the name of a single chord. Not one. Not a single one. I only know the pentatonic scale because it's do re mi.
I'm a software engineer for 15 years. I hate doing new shit. I don't want to learn new frameworks or languages, and the only way I will is if it's absolutely necessary to get shit done. I'm not enthusiastic about knowledge.
I'm happy with surface level pop sci discussion of the universe and science. I don't care about how it really works.
I just want to be numb most of the time and enjoy a calm, quiet time by myself.
Stumulating discussion bores me. I'm just fucking normal, and that's all I'll ever be.
I read 300 books or so. Then just stopped reading. I don't care.
