>>20147194ive abused benzos on and off for the last year and a half. tried to limit myself to once or twice a week and failed both times, ended up taking daily for months and couldnt sleep without it. eventually had to take it as soon as i wake up or id feel like a nervous wreck. went through withdraws twice, last time was a month ago and my god, its true hell. i did the same with heroin (pure and snorted) and quitting that was a cakewalk in comparison with kratom to assist. ive been off the benzos and everything for a month now and have started to feel normal again but going outside reminds me of why i started in the first place. ill probably attempt again only when i have to leave the house just to help with the crippling social anxiety to see if i can actually rebuild my social skills with it this time but honestly im still scared to play with fire again. its a dangerous and fine line to walk but i just want to feel normal
