>>19967302It's a compound effect that happens over several years. First you realize what you don't have, then you want it. When it doesn't come or you can't get it when you try, the effect gets stronger. You wish you had people to share your problems with or the things you've done but there's nobody. All you can hope for is that one day God won't be as unloving as he seems down here. I've gotten to the point where I actively try to see the worst in people, hate them and such so that I won't miss their company. Don't end up like me.
