>>11182942>Be me in early 20s>Quit heroin >Stay clean for over a year >Decide I can drink >Start of small >Next thing I know I'm drinking insane amounts of vodka in only a few hours >Do this for almost a year >Few nights ago end up in hospital thinking I'm having a heart attack, all the symptoms>Really high BP and HR >EKG >Not heart attack Bad withdrawals coupled with really severe panic attack that only happens like once a year for no reason, this would be the 2nd time I've been confronted with how bad of consequences the choices I make have, too much to live for. I hate having been born with addict genetics, but I unironically love being alive.