>>5858553pls do HRT as a last resort
have you tried meditating(lying down in a comfortable position, staying still and breathing slowly), going for a run in the morning and doing shortcourses/internships to increase your skillset?
Ses says: "Do not get caught in the haze of Mara and allow yourself to be controlled by your impulses. will you forever live your life like a dog on a leash, being led around by its desires across a field of hot coals, or will you break free from the miasma of your conditioning? In the end its your choice,
other people can only advise you"