>>6522446>be NEET shut in>decide to not be NEET and make friends and be super sociable using darknet benzos>start getting feelings of despair about having to answer messages popping up on my phone even though its friends on the same wavelength who are redpilled who I actually have deep discussions with and realize I don't like socializing even in the best possible conditionsI'm not even in a situation where I have to grin and bear annoying political views or fairweatherness, or pretend to be normie but fucking hell I hate socializing even when I've finally found people I can jus b urself around. I've been isolated too long. I don't feel a boost from socializing in a friendly environment. I thought it would make me change just like I thought losing my virginity would make me into a man but I'm exactly the same, not more confident or alpha or less depressed just less paler. I bet a lottery win wouldn't change shit.
