>>8765327John 12:25 kjv
>He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal.Don't be hard on yourself anon, I was in your shoes before. It may not feel like it now, but trust me, they eventually pass even the suicidal thoughts.
Matthew 5:4 kjv
>Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.
God bless you anon :)