>>21028395I go to work. I drive my delivery truck. I come straight home, and sit alone, in my room. I've been doing this for years. I have no one and nothing. Years and years of parental abuse and bullying ruined me, and once I was an adult I was too broken to attempt a normal life. I'm 40 years old. I don't want to live like this anymore but I don't know what to do. I want love, I want to feel what it's like to have someone who cares for you, but even the idea of trying to approach other people paralyzes me and makes me feel like I can't breathe. I was able to stave off these thoughts and feelings for a long time with endless media consumption but the emptiness of my life has finally caught up with me. I'm going to die alone and miserable in this apartment without anyone understanding what happened to me or why I lived my life the way I did.
