>>6525543I know you're a narcissist
So is everyone else ever who used this board in place for the lack of social exposure they receive in real life.
You do realize a majority of the users here are teenagers under the age of 18, right?
You're bathing with the muck and the grime of the inferior, and yet you fit in so well because you are exactly that:
Inferior
Your mental state is a result of this continued obsession with short term gratification from strangers online because your loneliness and lack of willpower would bring you to the depths of despair without it.
You need to look deeply inward rather than to the false sky of regret and self loathing you've idolized. Start becoming a better you.