>>9252648So it's the programming. Maybe you should try being YOUR pride and joy? I know I am mine, even if not many elses. Man I have no idea what kind of effect your life has on the life of others, but I know what kind of mine has. I recently taught my neighbours kid to use an axe, and that boy will now for the rest of his life know how to handle an axe. I'd call that an impact. Many such cases! Had to learn that on my own by the way. This kid's got good parents but neither of those would have taught that to their son on their own, yet as I went to their door with the boy asking if it was OK to teach him how to, they both were really happy. I secretly did feel a bit bad for the dad tho. Eh, he'll teach him everything else I suppose.
I honestly don't know if I am the right person to dish out advice to you, or the last person you should listen to but I'll give you my two cents, figuratively, as literally those would be atm pretty much my last monnies. You seem to get some sort of positivity from impacting other peoples lives. You figure out the rest.
>not taking the sort-of-neet-but-not-really-pill 