>>12590876is there really though?
you said your sister seems happy, I don't really see a reason to doubt it
especially since she was offering advice with the makeup thing earlier, that shows that she cares about you and isn't just putting up with you
if you're really worried, you can always start taking small steps toward improving yourself
it sounds like you already wanted to do that a bit with the makeup, and if that can help you get out more and reduce your anxiety it can only lead to more small steps and better things, right?
things aren't as hopeless as it might feel sometimes, it can just be difficult to find that first step
I know if you put your mind to it you can do it
