>>14370727I guess my secret is that whenever one of my family members ruins my schedules and day, I only curse them in my head for hours instead of giving them "the talk".
My grandma phones me this morning cuz my fucking sister didn't hAD TiMe (she has certain catchphrases, depending on her age. When we were growing up, she had some incredibly irritating things that she just kept on fucking repeat, I hope she skips a night from time to time remembering how fucking CRINGE and shitty she was. Nowadays she doesnt have fucking time for anything but work and pleasure, which is understandable BUT I LITERALLY FUCKING TAKE HER GARBGE OUT NEARLYT EVEREY WEEK FCUZ IT PILES UP AND MY GRANDMA HAS TO LIVE IN STINK BECAUSE OF THAT FUCK YOUU AAHH) also I hate my grandma, I hate get so much yet I shouldn't, I hate her incredibly every time she asks me to do anything, mostly because I have another grandma whom I live with to take care of as well and my own needs, and I have a rather strict schedule of morning -> uni -> gym before I get too hungry -> eat -> clean myself -> I can start a day now (4 - 6 PM usually) and she often asks me to do X stuff that takes a lot of time, like half an hour or once four hours in between those, and I already have to skip gym because of other reasons, and without gym I feel like utter garbo, cant sleep, cant focus, cant live, uni work kills me mentally, gym is my meditative space and they are taking it away, and I curse them so fucking much its unreal, I speak vile of my family when I'm angry in spirit, but I only speak to myself, I only really do it in my own head, when I am shopping for my grandma who gives me a shopping list like she goes to the shop every 2 days BITCH YOU DONT GO TO SHOP EVER Y2 DAYS, I GO, GIVE ME A FUCKING WEEKLY SHOPPING LIST, NOT "GO BUY MILK AND CIGARETTES FUCKER AND TOMORROW DO THE SAME BTW, YOU IDIOT" anyway she loves me a lot but I hate her because of it.
