>>18839012right now im unable to build my circle. im in a really rough spot where im constantly pouring in energy for school, self study and exams. i have never been pressured this hard for so long before. im prob not going to make any friends or be healthy anytime soon. but the price im paying for if it works out will be worth it because by the end of this im going to completely wipe my moms debt, im going to have a future income and i will be completely set. i might become extremely fucked up but atleast i will have success and by then i can try to fix myself or something. right now im on the path of becoming an extremely hateful human hating person who will think of everyone as a subhuman. i dont want to be a bad person against my own will but i dont have a say. im glad things are getting better for you and right now instead of focusing on me you should focus on yourself and see if you can make your life a good life one worth suffering for